I've always been the weird one.
During elementary school, I was always the youngest in my grade (I skipped first grade). I didn't wear the same clothes as everyone else, nor did I bring the same stuff in for lunch. While most kids were eating their peanut butter and fluff sandwiches, I was the one who found sushi in her lunchbox. My sense of humor was always different, and I never listened to the popular radio station; rather, I listened to whatever CDs my father and I had picked randomly off the shelves of the nearest weird indie record store.
Now I still feel so out of place, even amongst my friends. They always tease me for my age. And whenever I try to embrace my weirdness, I STILL get teased for it. I mean, I'm not THAT weird. I'm just different. (At least, that's what my mom tells me :P ).
But recently little things have been pushing me over the edge. For example, my best friend told me a story about the time she went shopping for my birthday present with her mom. At the mall, my friend, let's call her Sam, didn't know where to go to get my present. Her mom suggested clothes, but then immediately took it back, saying, "Kizzy sure does wear a lot of... out there clothes, doesn't she?" Later, as they were driving home, my friend popped in a mix I made for her the previous summer. As she and her mom listened, her mother commented, "Kizzy sure does listen to a lot of... out there music, doesn't she?"
It just sucks knowing that you don't fit in with even your closest friends.
I love you JUST the way you are!
ReplyDeleteNo seriously, please don't change anything about yourself just because of what others might say.
98% of the time its jealousy speaking.
MWAH.
I just stopped by from Emily's blog, and I really like yours!
ReplyDeleteAlthough I don't have the age thing, I can understand how you're feeling to a certain extent. I mean, you always think that you're supposed to be on the same brain-wave with your best friend, but then you find out that you really just aren't. Then the feeling of oddity seeps in and you feel so...strange.
It sucks being the one who's always called "weird", even by family and your closest friends, but you sometimes just have to realize that you may be considered weird, but you really are just different. In a good way, of course. That difference is important for you, and somewhere down the road it will be accepted by someone.
I'm not even sure if I'm making sense, so I'll stop now :P
Love the blog, keep up the good work :D
-Hannah
that pic is so cool!
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